everything is scary
1. I'm all moved in. tonight was the first night jade is sleeping here(since she was at her dads all weekend)and of course we had a huge earthquake and it made her scared. she just got to bed alittle while ago.
the sad part was that i was more scared than her and was crying. haha i just reallllllllly hate earthquakes. i remember freaking out back in 94 when there was that big one and all day there were after-shocks. ugh just thinking about it makes me scared
2. I have my dog with me here. and janelle has quite a few dogs and one of them beat up marley already. i really hope this situation works out and they end up getting along. i need him here with me. its really scary being alone here...or when jades asleep. man i'm a baby

i just hope my friends dont mind coming over and keeping me company and having some movie nights.
:)

and then theres 3.
my grandma(the most amazing woman alive)is in the hospital again. she had 3 stents put in about a month ago and was totally fine. until 2 nights ago she had a terrible stomach ache and fever and realized her plug from where they put her stents in was really swollen. so she went to the emergency room and found out that they needed to do surgery to figure out whats going on.
turns out she has a hernia and it was cutting off her bowel. so they had to cut her bowel and then reconnect it with her stomach. shes in icu and will most likely be fine. especially with me and all my family praying for her. but scary stuff. i realllllllly cant begin to think about losing her.

with everything going on...i feel extremely overwhelmed and i'm hoping nothing else changes and everything just kinda chills out.
i think i'll go watch beauty and the beast now. goodnight!